some times i feel like throwing my hands up in the air..

baby you've got the love... (8)

ahhh, fml.



Had a good day with Jessss, in Worthing. Mmm big H&M, new jumper and skirt :) nothing like shopping to 'get over someone' pfffft.

rain rain go away and all that shit...


some things are all just la da daa...

didn't see that coming.

things change.
that's life.



but what happens if the change isn't for good?

Christmas Eve.

Nope, not filled with christmas joy, frankly i couldn't give a shit about christmas...

I think once the idea of Santa has gone, everything else wanders off aswell. But what hey, got the family coming round and i'm probably going to enjoy myself, but atm it doesn't feel like it :L

I'm 16 now, and i think that is the age where the excitment of christmas goes. :)

Went round felix's today, for a bit of painting :) well i was painting the wall - he painted me.. bitch. :L

So now i am sitting here with paint in my hair and wandering what to do with all the posters i just took off the wall.. hmmm room looks so shit without them.

Peace out bloggers,
merry christmas? dont make me laugh.
nikki - xo

Christmas Eve Eve.

Avatar - the most amazing film ever.

I do not feel christmassy at all. And I do not like it. >.<

Seeing felix tomorrow, decorating (Y) i like paint :)
- i have a feeling i'm gonna get it in my hair :/ but oh well :L

that's it.

oh. a certain person is annoying me, keeps bringing something up like they mean it. And tbh, it's quite hard to block out :/

peace out bloggers
nikki - xo

Olympia 09

Twas amazing :) avec lizzi :]

- trains are always fun.
-the guy with the see-through leotard/nice undies ;)
-the posh guy with the rocking horse :L:L

oh dear - no jokes just thinking of the rocking horse guy makes me laugh...


today; no riding. still 'injured' or i should be. But i'm in no pain, unless you poke one of my many bruises :L

well, that is it. I cannot belive how much i am missing XFac :/ olly olly olly, how i love thee :) <3


peace out bloggers
nikki - xo

Snap! was that me?

yes, i nearly broke a bone.

Horse riding of course, did a lovely jump over a small jump with oscar who got a tad bit excited after it and cantered off towards the fence. Next thing i know, i'm on the floor after being chucked towards the fence. Now because i'm stupid, i tried to grab the fence, catching my arm in the process, here is the result of the snap. I heard it. My instructor heard it. Following the snap, was a lot of pain and tears - i never cry when falling off - this hurt A LOT.

Embaressing situation; my dad came running into the school, lol. Walked into the office, got checked over by my instructor; nothing broken. THANK GOD.

But i am in a lot of pain; very stiff and covered in bruises in weird places.

So, this weekend. I went ice skating with Amy in London then I went to a EPIC party where i got smashed out of my face, then i went riding and nearly broke my collarbone. AND THEN to top off a very eventful sunday; JOE WON THE X FACTOR - fuuuuuck off; Olly is the true winner!!

But atm, I am cuddled up in bed, with my lovely felix, some nice soup and random shit on iPlayer (Y)

Parents evening tomorrow; kill me now?

peace out - nikki xo

1,2,3,4...

one, two, three, four, tell me that you love me more... (8)


la la la la..

annoyed and happy at the same time, at the same person...

that was totally inappropriate!!

Some people can be SO out of order and it is actually driving me crazy, like ffs. People should understand that there boundaries, which some people like to keep!!!!

ARGHHH

i'm sooo annoyed atm.
and i am such a slut -_-

fml.


speak soon.
love and hugs - nikki xo

it's gone :\

good mood has gone.


fml.



AHHH!

WetWetWet.

FUCKING RAIN!!

walked home, with hannah and beth, but once they had gone, it was me and my good ole iPod xD until... THIS STUPID ARSE TRUCK DRIVER DROVE THROUGH A MASSIVE PUDDLE AND DROWNED ME.. - MEN!!!

anywhoo, i had a pretty fabby weekend tbh, and i've been in an overally good mood today - which is weird... :L

olly is in the final of xfac, so happy :)

Ice Skating with Amyyyy on sat - so excitedd


love and hugs - nikki xo

and i don't want to fall at your feet... (8)

new song :) the crowded house, i think it's by. Tis quite nice :)

Well, i have a shit group lesson on oscar but a nice private :) I cannot control a hyperactive horse with 6 other horses in the way -_-

Went to town avec Carolynn to buy a certain friends pressie ^^ also had a good gossip over a lovely Vanilla Latte - mmm thinking about it makes me want one now...

That's all for now.

Olly to stay in xfac PLEAASE :D

peace out blogger
love and hugs - nikki xo

GET IN THERE

I cooked.

Nothing is burned.

Smoke alarm silent.

SUCESS!!!!

Paranormal Activty.

Well, even though it made me jump. And i was scared to be alone at home last night, until felix came round. It was actually a good film and i even forgive hannah for nearly braking my hand! Bless her cotton socks.

Also walking home in the dark was a tad on the scary side, lol.

Felix came round at about 11pm, as i was quite scared and didn't want to go upstairs with the fear that a demon was going to come out of the loft whislt i was peeing or something.. sounds ridiculous now.. ahaa

Anywhoo, felix slept round.... and well all you need to know is that i had a very enjoyable evening.

This morning, I rode ellie, who i have to say looked adorable today. Felix. On a horse. Is the funniest site i have seen in a LONG while...
ahaa, you never have a camera when you need one :/

Watching lilo and stitch 1 & 2 with my lovely (in pain) boyfriendd - i actually can't stop laughing LOL

Well, a night full of good tv to watch tonight- and parents still not home (Y)

Peace out bloggers
love and hugs - nikki xo

Whatta change..

So being on cloud nine definatly leads to this mysterious thing called love.

Felix Crafer; Boyfriend.Best Friend <3
atm, i couldn't ask for more.

But yes, what a change.

Exams are over, christmas is coming and i cannot wait!

ooo yeahhh xD

peace out bloggers
love and hugs - nikki xo

cloud nine...

I want to live on cloud nine forever - this warm, fuzzy, happy feeling inside me; the reason why you're on this leval of happiness not leaving your head, the smile that is permantly on your face and when parents ask you, 'why so happy?' and all you can do is sigh...

mmmmmm.

But the thing is, i'm not 'in love' - well i don't think i am, it's quite confusing. But do you have to be in love to be cloud nine? hmm... i'll get back to you on that one...

Anyway, tonight has been the uplift i needed and hopefully i will be like this all the way through my mocks this week - give me strength :L

Rather tired,
peace out bloggers,
love and hugs - nikki xo

So Much Love.. (8)

you got so much love in you... you got so much love in you... i'm amazed that i'm talking to you... you look like the songs that i've heard my whole life coming true... (8) <3
- The Rocket Summer; So Much Love

Atm, that is my all time favourite song, because i've listened to it soo many times, and it hasn't got annoying or boring yet. I hate it when that happens, you listen to a song a million times then you hate it -__-

Anyway, I had a pleasent ride on Ellie this morning, with Lauren on Carrie. Hacking out in the freezing winds is always fun until you get off and realize you can't feel your fingers, lol.
I also liked the fact that I was at the front, and I didn't know where I was going - well I do know :)
Love Ellie pony soo much ^^

Rugby atm, with mon pere :] Ireland vs South Africa... IRELAAAAAAAND!! IRELAAAAAAND!!!!! love that athemn :L

Other than that, it's a tv filled day - oo watched Casanova, and frickin' hell Heath Bloomin' Ledger is GORGEOUS! :D quite like that film xD


Peace out Bloggers
love and hugs - nikki xo

La La La...

FFS! when will i stop daydreaming?! - and about 'him' is really starting to pee me off, like i swere i don't like 'him' and now i'm questioning my judgement. Ahh fml.

Anywhoo, physics mock today - fucked that up.

Bring on the weekend, that's all i'm saying.

FYI - I just daydreamed - ARGHH

peace out bloggers,
love and hugs - nikki xo

Oh My!

Haven't posted in a while, tbh I don't have the time! Oh how i like to busy atm xD

although i'll complain before and afterwards, I think keeping busy with useful things, stop me thinking about things that frankly i shouldn't think about.

Don't you just hate that? You start thinking about something or someone, then you realise - shit - i need to do.. etc. Then once's theit in you head, they won't get out - i think that's quite rude and STUPID tbh :/

I've also decided recently that I'm keeping more stuff to myself, it's not like i don't trust my friends or anything, i trust them with my life. It's just nice to know something that know one else knows but you - If i want to tell someone - like if i think they ought to know, then i'll tell them :D

And i hate when people complain about not telling them something, PRIVACY PEOPLE!!!

Anywhoo,
peace out loverss
-love and hugs -xo

Positivity.

Any negativity, i'm blocking out from now on, because i'm fed up of being down and regretting things, it's actually bullshit.

So, Parents can go fuck themself, and any other un-wanted negative people :)

GCSE's, bring 'em on!
College, I'm looking forward to :)

My future... LET'S GET CRACKIN'!!!!


smiles, love and hugs - nikki xo

TOMORROW!!

Yes, it's my birthday tomorrow, and i am a tad on the excited side!!

Had my party today, was brilliant.

Lizzi, Evie, Jess, Carolynn, Amy, Devon and Emma came round for singstar and pizzaaaaa, which was a right old laugh.
And the amount of videos of bad singing that are going on youtube is horrible :L

well, i am very very very tired and has quite a sore throat :L

peace out bloggers
love and hugs - nikki xo

Three Days..

Well, I haven't posted in a while, and I apologise :P

Since last time i've had a 'disagreement' with a really close friend, but what i like most is that it all got resolved with some simple words and some homemade soup :) mmm soup...

I would like to inform you all, that it is 3 days 'til my sixteenth!! And I am soo excited; having a small party with some friends on sunday :D should be funn xD

That's all for now, Tired and I want to sleep xD

Peace Out Bloggers
love and hugs - nikki xo

Bloody English Weather!

I hate rain! I had so much planned today, but now it's all been ruined by stupid rain!!!!!

Not happy atm,

Peace Out Bloggers!
love and hugs - nikki xo

I like being spoiled xD

I think everyone likes to me spoiled now and then, and when I'm visiting my aunty and uncle - they spoil me :) And I'm not going to deny it, but I like being spoiled.

My Aunty, took me out to lunch, in a lovely restaurant in worthing called 'FOOD' ( i lol'd too ^^ ) She also took my shopping, where I got a new outfit then later in the day, she took me for 'fake bake, spray tan' - well let's just say, I'm nice and brown now, and I'm not sure if I like it - normally I'm rather pale and I never tan when on holiday, so I'm not used to this colour :L

Oh, I forgot to say, Happy Halloween!

How sad am I? I don't think I'm doing anything, supposed to be going to battle of the bands - but tbh, I actually cba - I'm just not in the mood to stand outside in the possible rain and watch some shitty bands ( apart from last letter read - who I hope win xD )

Other than that, I think it's a big bowl of crap food, some shitty horror films and my comfy sofa for tonight (Y)

Peace Out Bloggers!
love and hugs - nikki xo

I liked that.. :)

Other than an amaaaazing night at liquid, I did bugger all today - well nothing that is remotely interesting that is.

I helped to do some painting at the old peoples home where my nan lives, then i slept some more :)

But, Liquid was truly amazing :] I thought it was going to be okay, but i thoroughly enjoyed myself - and yes, getting off with a rather nice guy does help :P Unlike my friend Jaz, I went for quality not quantity :] Well, i'm not going to go into details about that other than the fact that I can't wait 'til the next time :)

I am rather knackered :L

Peace Out Bloggers!!
love and hugs - nikki xo

Damn...

Today, I had a college tester day a Plumpton Agriculture College doing a day of 'Animal Care' - well it was okay I suppose for a random activity day - but I can't imagine myself doing Equine there; most people who were alreadt there were so posh and tbh a but up themselves. And I don't think that I want to study and get my a-levals/diploma there :/ so my big dilemma atm; wtf am I going to do with my life? And what am I going to do at my nearby college; Collyers?
Daaaaaaamn much? :/

Other than that, my day was quite shit, ahaa

Short blog tonight...
Peace Out Bloggers!
love and hugs - nikki xo

Rawwr?

Right, so atm I'm in the weirdest mood ever - one moment i'm acceptionally happy/ hyper then the next i'm angry/sad, then I start laughing 'cause i'm all emotional! :L

Well yesterday, I had a pleasent ride on Bailey who was a right pain at the beginning of the lesson but we got there in the end (Y) Lizzi was on Oscarr, who was being a bit of a numpty and swerving at the jumps resulting in lizzi hitting the deck! Bless her - but it was quite funny :L

Lizzi slept over and it was a right giggle as always! We ate a whole tub of phish food whilst watching the X-Factor results - which I am bloody annoyed about!! The frickin' twins stayed in again!!! What is the public thinking?!?

Anywhoo, today I didn't really do much apart from going to the dentist :( and this stupid lady had a drill >.<

Well that's me done for today bloggers!
Peacee out n_n
love and hugs - nikki xo

Happy.

Yes, it's actually true, i'm happy atm :) Know idea why though :L

Last night went to HYC (Horsham Youth Centre, for those who didn't know) to listen to some decent bands play live :) Blankout, Fighting Fiction, Canada Water, Amy Can Flyy and Heroes vs Villains who were headlining - to sum it all up, I had a very enjoyable time :]

This morning, I had an early start to the day :( but it was okay, as I went to ride one of my mum's friend's horses, Ellie. She is simply gorgeous! And I will be going back to ride her again xD

Other than that, my days been pretty average - done some heavy thinking (more daydreaming tbh) about some 'things' and 'someone' and I've decided to not et small stupid things bother me anymore, I wonder how long that will last?

Atm, I'm waiting for Hole in the Wall to come on Tv followed by Merlin, then X-Factor - You've got to love Saturday night Tv :)

Peace Out Bloggers!
love and hugs - nikki xo

I'm Going To Kill My Ovaries.

Well as you can guess from the title, yes; it's my time of the month. The one thing I hate about being a woman - although I am pretty impressed that we can bleed for 3/4 days straight without dying. But at the moment, I don't care to much about how 'impressing' it is - it's the fact that even the the almighty Nurofen isn't helping >.< and as it says in the title - I WANT TO KILL MY OVARIES :@

Changing topic; I think i've fixed my friend problem with the simple technique of a smile :) LOL, smiling is very powerful now!! That reminds of the time I did smile at someone hoping it would fix a situation and I got evils back - so funny!

Well, tomorrow it's pink day at school, non-uni to rasie money for breat cancer, which I'm prepared for :) Pink is my favourite colour therefore resulting in many items in which I could wear xD and the fact I'm lending clothes out aswell ahaa..

I think that's it for today :)

Peace out bloggers!
love and hugs - nikki xo

Bring It On!

Right, I'm in a bad mood and good mood at the same time which is weird for starters.

I also had a 'disagreement' with a "friend" where she ended up saying that I was like a radio and couldn't be trusted - this made me feel great (Y) but actually, I couldn't give two shits. Apart from a few things, my life is acutally good atm, with or without this so called "friend".

Other than that, my day was generally good, and it wasn't the same old 'school thing'

Nothing long and detailed tonight, I am quite on the tired side.

Peace out bloggers!
love and hugs - nikki xo

Here We Go Again..

Well, what can I say? Today has been pretty eventful.

School, tbh same old, same old - why can't it be more exciting?

Ahaa, anyway Starbucks after school with the lovely Evie - I love hot chocolate :) made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside ^^ Also, Evie and I always manage to have a proper heart to heart in the strangest of places; today for instance - the library, near the coffee machine xD

I have recently discovered some drama rama, and tbh, I don't really want to go into details, just to let you know that drama is happening :) woop...

Also, I confessed my love to the guy of my dreams.. well not really ahaa, I told this guy that I liked him, he has just come out of a messy relationship a while ago and doesn't think 'anything serious is best right now' - which I understand, so we're going to be friends until he's ready then I will try, try and try again until he can't say no :) maybe i could torture him 'til he see's things my way.. I joke, I joke... (mwahaha..)

Like I said before, school is just the same thing over and over again, and tbh I'm getting tired of it - I know education is 'best', but still >.<

Well my lovelies, I'm off :)

Peace out bloggers!
love and hugs - nikki xo

The First One.

Right, here goes my first blog on Blogger.

I'm new to the whole blog experience, but I don't think it's possible to blog wrong, is it? I'll laugh if it is :L

Anyway, some information about little old me :)

First thing, the names Nikki, 15 at the moment and I’m a tad on the short side - no jokes. I’m about 5ft1? And I doubt I’m going to grow anymore , which is quite depressing as most of my friends are tall...

Although i’m small in height, I’m not small in personality, if that makes sense. I’m rather loud, and a tad on the insane side. I’m very short temepered, and if I don’t like you, you and most of my friends will know about it, I like to argue and be right.
This is how I do not like my parents – like every typical teenager out there.I have frequent ‘disagreements’ with the ‘rents and I’m getting good are winning (yay) I’m beginning to think that all parents are designed to annoy the crap outta you, and I bet they have a right laugh with their friends – if they have any that is...

I naturally have curly blonde hair, and it’s been dyed so many times since my o’so natural days, it's impossible to keep count many colours I’ve been; at the moment I am a dark chocolate brown ...I wonder how long this will last?

I live in a small town called Horsham which is in West Sussex, England - for all those who have no idea where it is :P Don’t worry, it’s nothing special – it’s full of old people and small children.
It mostly rains here, but it hasn't in a while - which I appreciate very much; thanks Mr. Weatherman :)

I love all my friends, perhaps a little too much,and I guess the term, ‘I can’t live without them’ is a little old and overused, but it’s entirely true – they are my life support.

I would list, but there are waay to many, a few specials; Eviibell, Lizzi, Jessss and my newest bestie Felix - I love you all :)

I’m in my last year of Millais Secondary School, which for school -I guess it’s okay :] As being a typical teenager of course I hate it and can’t wait to leave and explore the wonderful world of college :P

Favourite hobby; Horse riding- I love it so much, and i’ve been riding now for 4years? Possibly a tad more. It’s my hobby and my passion and I don’t think I could live without it somewhere in my life :]

Well there we go; now you know some things about my life (no laughing btw!)

Speaking of life, mine is pretty average at the moment -meaning nothing exciting is happening, I do love a bit of drama to mess about with xD

I would write more, like what happened today, but I’m bloomin' freezing – stupid British weather >.<

I do hope my blogging improves :D

Peace out bloggers,
love and hugs - Nikki xo

P.S; can you leave a comment or whatever, telling me if you actually read this? :L