nice one nicola...

i don't think i have felt so disgusted with myself in a long time - maybe ever actually - so slutty. so eurghh.

i cannot believe me sometimes. i swere what i say in my head, and what i actually say/do don't work.

not only have i made myself feel like complete and utter crap. i have complicated someone elses life up - great.

nothing ever happens how i think it's going to.


bath. early bed. tomorrow i will smile like nothing's wrong.

don't care.

i don't care about guys - unless one decided to make an effort himself. hmph.

no point fussing and stressing over a guy who is taken and have no chance with anywhooo :L


so it's nick 21st and i got him so lovely chocolate in the shap of tractors or cars :) he liked it :)
made him some noodless and i put a candle in it :) lol it kinda sunk but STILL! :L it's the effort that counts. :)

had an alright day town with evie in the rain -___- and evie's broken umbrella (Y)


happy days again :) byee xx

I did it again..

ohh yuss; i like a taken guy. WHY DO I DO THIS. IT'S SHIT :L

yeahh i'll invite him here.. oh wait - girlfriend.
well i'll call him for a chat.. oh wait - GIRLFRIEND.

hopefully that wont last long (yn) aha

well, it is nicholasssssss' birthdaaay tomorrow. The big 21. Some people are just too old. AND i think it's not nice that he's going clubbing and I CANT GO! damn not being 18 -_-

well dont tell nickk but.. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO GET HIM!! :S:S:S



well, extremely mixed emotions atm, i think its the pills. :L

BYEE xxx

isn't it obvious? (8)

Well i had another fab weekend.

Hannah, Evie and Jess came round, we hada chinese and wached jeepers creepers- forgot how muhcof a shit film that is :L- and mean girls.

sososo tired next day - we all woke up about twelve after our intense gossip 'til about four :)


Changing topics - i think i'vedone something i said i wasn't gonna do. I do recall telling myself, iwasn't gonna bother with guys, relationship, love and shit. Buti do believe, i may have fallen for someone- it's definately not love, but in time itcould be - i have a good feeling :)


'if holding hands is to descrete,let's make out in the middle of four street, if this flowers just ain't enough for you, help me god to tell me what to do, couldn't be more true, isn't it obvious that i love you?' (8)




bye <3

oh what a pleasent chav you are..

well went out for a nice ride with Lauren this morning. Ellie was an angel and so was carrie :)
Aaprt from, this chav. Oh they do make me laugh - and sneeze. I think i may be allergic :L He was trying to communicate, but i did apologise for not learning that language in school :)

Cannot wait for this afternoon with the girlies :) <3


BYEEEE!!

xD

well brinsbury interview; got in :)

liquid, was fun :) 3 guys, no bad. Think one of them was gay :L silly hair cut anyway, ahaa. Including, got my tongue bit - swere it ws bleeding :L

Lizzi got lucky aswell ;) And Evie with her guy :)

feet hurt so much, ears were buzzing, good night though (Y)


xx

fuckpancakes.

omggg, pancake day with nickk.

have eaten them ALL DAY
then papa came home, with...
PANCAKE MIX!

eughh.
never want to see one EVER AGAIN.


but overall good day :)
interview and liquid tomorrow :)


bye! <3

'Darling, there are chinese people in our bathroom' :L

ohh such a good weekend. Rode ellie who was an angel saturday morning. Round lizzi's for such a needed sleepover :)
Chocolatee, mmm. And wheat free fish finger :L

Chinese people in the bathroom :L well not ours AHA

Webcam photos which made me cry - with laughter :) aha

love you lizzi :)

Sunday, did bugger all.
Valentines day, whatta load of shite :L
nick came round coz i was home alone and didn't want to watch Being human on my own :L

today, doctors then I rode Carrie :) blesss her, shes so fat :L so cute ^^

byeeee!

Happy Birthday Taylor :)

It's taylor lautners 18th birthday :) But as he lives in america, he still can't buy alcohol 'til he's 21. GUTTED :P

Happy Birthday to Lilyy aswell :) 16 and legal ;D :L


Not much happened today, twas very cold, and i now have paint on my art; BUT i am no way gonna finish before tomorrow :S:S:S fml :/



bloom (L)

College; *ticks box*

yayayayayayayayayayayayayaaaaaa!

conditional placement :) four GCSEs between, A*-D and I am sortedd bludd.


EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEee

now, i am not stressed about it :)

misses dear bloom <3

Oh, that was needed :)

Oh how i do love having my bloom back (L)

pizza, chocolate (bought from spar; mmm spar guy :P ) and a lot of tea :) and tbh, a well and needed gossip from a true friend who won't judge, or tell people :D

maaan, i feel SO much better after that chat :)


Interview tomorrow *shits oneself*; lie in - GETTIN!


happy happy happy :D

things happen for a reason?

if things happen for a reason, my life is pretty damn fucked (Y)

I have muscles!!

well, i haven't rode 'properly' - like a one-to-one lesson is AGES. I had one today, on Ant with Peter and OMFGG my tummy muscles hurt like a bitch. Peter literally whipped me into the correct seat all in prepare for my interview on wednesday at Merrist Wood.

OH!
Saw the spar guy :) He now knows where i live :D hehe

In such a good mood atm :) "nothing's gonna be me down" (8)


lovelovelove xx

Wow, he has a nice...

I will call him the Spar Guy, as I do not know his name.

Spar guy, work in the Spar across the road. He is quite nice look-wise, and I don't really KNOW him but yeahh.

Third time seeing him now :P

This time, went to spa for; Milk, Noodles and I fancied something extremely bad for me so i got Ben and Jerry's Phish Food :)And spar guy said, that 1. he loved phish food, and 2. i looked nice :) offt, i could die for his smile, it's soo nice :D

Well.. there we go. Little uplift for the day :) <3

fuck it.

ignore the last blog >.<

men are dicks.

i needed that :)

Certain dinner with parents and felix, thought it was gonna be awkward as hell, but it wasn't :D
it was kinda nice :)

including a nice makeout session :D - i could get used to that :)

<333

tea :)

can you be addicted to tea? Because i think i am O.o

i cannot stop drinking it!!
mmm tea :) <3

6:58am

listening to my new love.
gotta cup of tea.
duvet.
<3



tell me how i am supposed to get you off my mind, when you know i really couldn't even if i tried (8)

Wow, it's February...

Thankyou Mumi for a nice day shopping :)

February already! zomgg, how fast is this year going!? Jeeze, slow down world. You're rushing my life away!


Had a nice conversation again today :) ^^

Oh! umm sorry?

don't you just hate it, when you put your foot in? and i mean like big time?!

Was on the phone to my godmother - who i never speak to, i've met like once she lives like in scotland or near enough. And i was just making convosation, so i asked how Brian was (her husband btw) when i said it my mums face went into a 'don't ask that' face, basically my godmother started crying - Brian died around christmas...

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKK!!

this is what happens when my mother never tells me things - fml aha